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dream...

2012-01-25T11:48:00.003-05:00

we are at our house...i notice that there is smoke starting to fill up the upper ceiling area, the wood stove is not smoking inside...i see a spot in the ceiling where there is smoke puffing out, so i go outside to look at the roof & chimney area...i can see sparks & smoke, so i run back inside to get my phone...i am telling melian about the fire as i try to dial 911...i am having a very difficult time with the phone, as i am panicking a little bit...finally, i get in touch with the dispatcher, who says she is sending a crew...then, two cars pull up in the driveway, one being pushed by some guy, another comes up & it is joey...then a few more, and i see dean out there as well...it is about 6 or 7 cars & i am freaking out...i am wondering WHAT are they doing here? i run outside to tell them all to move their cars as the firetrucks will be here soon...they are working on this as the tankers pull up...as i am opening the door for the firefighters, a solid black german shepherd runs past me inside the door and up the stairs...i think oh, no! a drug-sniffing dog, and one of my friends runs up the stairs after the dog...after they get the fire out, we are in the living room talking...there are a lot of people at my house! the black shep comes back downstairs, and my friend says all is well...i have Rhiannon with me on her leash, and she is growling at the shep, who is trying to be all friendly...i am talking with the firefighters about this, and gradually Rhiannon makes friends with the fire-dog...

grey mist

2012-01-24T01:59:00.003-05:00

with coconut oil in my hair and cheap merlot
in my glass
i am living the aftermath
of misty drizzle calming day
read and cat-snuggle
dog snacks!
wash the laundry/the dishes!
a nap happened
even went to work
stoke the fire and
freshen that glass

dream

2012-01-22T09:13:00.003-05:00

i have gone to visit d. in NYC to see a show with him...as we are leaving the venu walking to the subway, i tell him about a dream i had the night before where i rode my bicycle out of a place, carrying a friend...we get to the house where we will be staying the night, a relative or friend of his...a dachsund meets us at the door, but d. shushes him and he goes into the other room...i am thinking about how i cannot stay long because i must catch the train back, when i realize that it is not midnight yet, we left the show early! i try to tell all this to d., but it comes out all jumbled, so i laugh and say never mind...we climb into bed...to my surprise we are holding each other, caresses and a very lovely kiss...it is fantastic...later he must get up for work, and tells me that i could stay and meet up with him later if i wanted to...it occurs to me that i could do this! no work in the a.m., and i am in NYC! i say but i don't have my camera, and i've no $$$, but hey, i could take pictures with my phone...then when he is getting ready to take a shower he turns to me and says very sternly, "no weirdness. you & i have been friends for too long"...i answer yeah...but the feeling is not a good one, so i decide to leave and catch the next train out...

Edinburg

2012-01-22T00:27:00.001-05:00

dry grey wood
smitty's hunting cabin
hornets nests shed snakeskin

Meritage Kick

2012-01-15T14:34:00.009-05:00

My recent Meritage kick has included the following worthy wines:

Kendall-Jackson "Summation"-(50% Mendocino County, 34% Sonoma County, 15% Napa County, 1% Santa Barbara, Monterey, San Luis Obispo Counties )
Sterling "Meritage" - (Cabernet Sauvignon, Merlot, Malbec and Petit Verdot)
Apothic Red -(Syrah, Zinfandel, Merlot)
Cupcake "Red Velvet"-( Zinfandel, Merlot, Cabernet Sauvignon and Petite Sirah)
Artisan/Palette Reserve "Meritage" - (5 different undisclosed grapes)
Robert Mondavi "Meritage" - (41%Merlot, 35%Cabernet Sauvignon, 11&Petit Verdot, 10% Malbec, 3%Cabernet Franc)

They all wish they were The Winery at La Grange's Meritage!

Beer and a Book

2012-01-15T09:58:00.000-05:00

Finally reading 'Finnegan's Wake', after all these years. I have had this copy since my "Crown Books" days, and am excited to be into the hefty read!

Yard's "Ales of the Revolution" Tavern Porter was more bubbly & less heavy than I thought it would be. But was it ever delicous! Very drinkable, especially on the cold wintry day when I tried this porter. This craft brew was made following a recipe developed by George Washington for his field officers. The brewery is located in Philadelphia, PA of course!

dream pieces

2012-01-05T20:19:00.002-05:00

Richard Peabody comes to visit...

i have shelves and shelves of my books that i am going to donate/release/sell...i am going through them with a friend, we are writing our names in them...(as i move location through the dream, books come with me, more and more of them) i am at a flea market and showing the books to the proprietor, she is very excited, and we enjoy going through them together...i say that i think my books will do very well for her there...as we look at some of the children's books, a young customer shows interest in them!

FILMS VIEWED 2011

2012-01-01T13:07:00.001-05:00

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus (Terry Gilliam), 2009

Where The Wild Things Are

Shutter Island (Martin Scorsese), 2010

Public Enemies (Michael Mann), 2009

Green Zone (Paul Greengrass), 2009

Crazy Heart

BOOKS READ 2011

2012-01-01T13:06:00.001-05:00

PrairyErth by William Least Heat-Moon, 1991
Good Omens by Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman, 1990
Shadowrise by Tad Williams, 2010
Shadowheart by Tad Williams, 2010
The Year Of The Flood by Margaret Atwood, 2009
The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman, 2008
Nickel And Dimed by Barbara Ehrenreich, 2001
Oryx And Crake by Margaret Atwood, 2003
Zero History by William Gibson, 2010
Bait And Switch by Barbara Ehrenreich, 2005
Kraken by China Mieville, 2010
Horns by Joe Hill, 2010
Ghostwritten by David Mitchell, 1999
Blood Rites by Barbara Ehrenreich, 1997
The Thousand Autumns of Jacob de Zoet by David Mitchell, 2010
Djibouti by Elmore Leonard, 2010
Inside Wikileaks by Daniel Domscheit-Berg , 2011
Zen And The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig, 1974
Scar Tissue by Anthony Kiedis, 2004
Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre, 1938
Girls To The Front by Sara Marcus, 2010
Waking The Moon by Elizabeth Hand, 1995
Floating Worlds by Cecelia Holland, 1976
The Beacon At Alexandria by Gillian Bradshaw, 1986
Still Here by Ram Dass, 2000
Wildwood by Colin Meloy, 2011
The Help by Kathryn Stockett, 2009

CRAFT BEER 2011

2012-01-01T12:42:00.000-05:00

Moo-Hoo – Terrapin Beer Company, Athens GA
My Antonia – Dogfish Head Craft Brewery, Milton DE
Islander IPA – Coronado Brewing Company, Coronado CA
First Growth - Creek Ale – Chatoe Rogue/Rogue Ales, Newport OR
Oxymoron – Left Hand Brewing Company, Longmont CO & Terrapin...
Loose Cannon – Heavy Seas/Clipper City Brewing Company, Baltimore MD
Punk IPA – Brewdog Ltd., Fraserburgh Scotland
Glacier Harverst '10 – Harpoon Brewery, Boston MA & Windsor VT
Reunion '10 – Terrapin...
Sanctuary – Full Sail Brewing, Hood River OR
Demo – Magic Hat...
Namaste – Dogfish Head...
Wake And Bake – Terrapin...
Ellie's Brown Ale – Avery Brewing Co., Boulder CO
Lucky 7 – Evolution Craft Brewing Co., Delmar DE
Crickett's Nocturne – Crickett Hill Brewing Co., Fairfield NJ
Exile ESB – Evolution...Hopfish IPA- Flying Fish Brewing Co., Cherry Hill NJ
Monumental IPA – Port City Brewing Co., Alexandria VA
King Crimson - Peak Organic Brewing Co., Portland ME
Spiral Jetty IPA – Epic Brewing Co., Salt Lake City UT
Exit 9 – Flying Fish...
Wilco Tango Foxtrot – Laguntias Brewing Co., Petaluma CA
Kilt Lifter – Moylan's Brewing Co., Novato CA
Clown Shoes Brown Angel – Mercury Brewing Co., Ipswich MA
Fat Tire – New Belgium Brewing Co., Fort Collins CO
Ranger – New Belgium...
Trippel – New Belgium...
Hoptober – New Belgium...
Harvest Pumpkin Ale – Sam Adams...
Bonfire Rauchbier – Sam Adams...
Rotator – Widmer Brothers Brewing, Portland OR
Snow Day – New Belgium...
Pitch Black IPA – Widmer...
Milk Stout – Left Hand...
Smoke On The Water – Heavy Seas
Winter White Ale - Bell's...
Porter Pounder – Ass Kisser Beverage Co., San Jose CA
Black Radish – Weeping Radish/Farmbrew, Jarvisburg NC

dream segment

2011-12-30T21:21:00.002-05:00

melian has decided to start riding her bicycle to school as a way to lessen stress, and improve her life in general...she leaves a little later each time as she gets used to it, and gets better at it...on this day, we talk a little bit before she leaves about this strategy of hers...i watch her pedal down the road...i recline on my bed for a bit, then she returns! she is having a bad time, a bit of stress, she is sorrowful and tearful...she stretches out on the bed and we talk about all of this...the talking feels good, and we resolve some stuff...

the never-ending tape loop in my head...

2011-11-20T02:14:00.007-05:00

I am surrounded by beauty. I am walking a path strewn with negativity. I have a positive outlook. I am surrounded by doom. I am having self-esteem issues. I get praise from others. I feel confident in my abilities. I am shown my own stupidity by co-workers. I have everything because of love. I have nothing because of money. I am proud. I am disappointed in myself. I am a good person. I am not a good person. That which I value is meaningful. What am I doing with my life besides working? No one understands what I am saying. I have close friends who understand. What is the first thing I think of upon awakening? Whatever I did wrong the day before. Self-loathing is too easy, but I have had help; you have no common sense, you put too much detail in when you talk...

This is all why I must remember to BE HERE NOW.

dream segment

2011-11-19T12:05:00.002-05:00

joanie is home, and having a party at her house...holly is among the numerous people at the party!

ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID

2011-11-17T21:50:00.003-05:00

you can have this one, it's broken
i should have given you some of MY lettuce
i shouldn't have given you that one, it's worth money
i should have given you some of MY hostas
i thought you were going to call first
you would never have bought this for yourself
just don't ask him TOO many times
after all, this is MY kitchen
he doesn't like Leo women
i don't have time for your blog

dream segment

2011-11-13T00:57:00.002-05:00

i become part of a group of people doing an espionage maneuver...as we gather together to learn of our mission, we also get ready for our disguises...the woman who is leading us gives us our clothes...i am to wear a skirt suit with hose and heels...i say, "oh no! i haven't shaved my legs in a long time! this will be uncomfortable!"

For Ram Dass

2011-10-23T13:41:00.002-04:00

right now is
here
tree bones
across the trail
the colorization of the cricket's song
is the yellow
butterfly
on the
lavender asters

dream segment

2011-10-23T09:22:00.003-04:00

i work at a brand new health food store. we are getting ready for our premier opening. many customers come in, business is good. i help two customers find the books they want. at the end of the day, there are many abandoned items, mostly deli cheeses. as i am taking them back, a co-worker comments that our stuff is expensive.

yearning

2011-10-16T23:56:00.002-04:00

mind like open space
eyes like glittering stars
the feeling
of the desire to communicate
the hope that it will
occur
the knowing of the depth and
possibility
the wondering and the joy
of the moment

no romance

2011-10-16T23:54:00.001-04:00

reaching and reaching and
embracing
and the warmth of the holding
and
the feeling of the
connection
that's all, that's all
the reaching

romantic dream

2011-08-28T23:35:00.003-04:00

i am hanging out with dweezil zappa at his house...we are having a good time getting to know each other, and we begin to fall in love...at first i am afraid to kiss him because i think that my breath is bad, but then the kisses are so good i lose my fear...at one point he has on a white t-shirt with "zappa" and other designs written on it in charcoal...

dream piece

2011-08-28T04:08:00.002-04:00

rhiannon is out in the yard and that is o.k. because she is not running off, but then she does run off...and she is gone...then there is another dog, and he is out in the yard and won't run off, and it is supposed to be o.k., but i worry...

'Girls To The Front' by Sara Marcus, 2010

2011-08-12T15:55:00.004-04:00

Subtitled "The True Story of the RIOT GRRRL Revolution"...I was very excited to read this book, as I have been a proponent of riot grrrl from the outset. I found the subject matter of great interest but sadly did not enjoy Marcus' writing style. Be that as it may, I do recommend this to any music fan, feminist, or combination thereof. (Watch "Don't Need You: The Herstory of Riot Grrrl", directed by Keri Koch, 2005)

the odd dream scrap here & there...

2011-07-27T18:26:00.001-04:00

7/25 - dreamed of Lorraine & Amanda

7/27 - dreamed about Mary: she drove to the house in some huge vehicle (camper?) and had a rough time getting parked in the driveway. she brought Cherry Wheats with her...

'Nausea' by Jean-Paul Sartre, 1938

2011-07-17T23:29:00.002-04:00

Odd how this book did not come alive for me until the end, when the main character; Antoine Roquentin, meets with his previous love; Anny. It is after that meeting when he realizes so much more about existence, and seems to accept existence. It was difficult for me to relate to Roquentin's discomfort with and horror of organic life.

some dream segments

2011-07-05T01:41:00.002-04:00

i go to cadence's house but she is not there, so i talk with her mom for a while...as i go through the front door, the foyer is quite dark...(the house is much different)...i am in the kitchen, and a few other rooms...

i stop by the leonard's house to visit

Tadpole Dream

2011-06-27T17:22:00.002-04:00

i am driving through a town i do not know, when i see big rain puddles on either side of the road...i hear frogs, and see a young girl near the puddles exclaiming about tadpoles, so i stop to check it out...sure enough, there are many tadpoles in both big puddles, so i text Tammy to tell her that i found some tadpoles for Emily...i send her the names of the streets, and tell her to come meet me there...

Lessons Not Yet Learned

2011-03-16T08:39:00.001-04:00

"Congress is not preparing to defend the people of the United States. It is planning to protect the capital of American speculators and investors.... Incidentally this preparation will benefit the manufacturers of munitions and war machines.... Strike against war, for without you no battles can be fought! Strike against manufacturing shrapnel and gas bombs and all other tools of murder! Strike against preparedness that means death and misery to millions of human beings! Be not dumb, obedient slaves in an army of destruction! Be heroes in an army of construction!"

-Helen Keller at Carnegie Hall January 5, 1916

An On-Going Thing Of Beauty...

2011-02-25T18:51:00.002-05:00

This is The Style, and really; everyone MUST know. Please, join us in the wonderful, the exhilarating, "Pays-Bas Cycle Chic".

Let's Catch Up On Some Dreaming...

2011-02-25T18:13:00.003-05:00

i have just had another baby...it seems to be my daughter again, like a melian junior. which is odd, but cool...i am nursing her in various different settings...people are talking with me, i am hanging out with friends, all is very happy...she does a big poo, so then i am putting her on the changing table for a new diaper...she becomes much like a doll as i turn her to clean her and try to put on the new diaper...in the stillness of her body she is more difficult to handle...she falls...she has on a miniature ball cap with the bill forward which protects her face...i pick her up and get the new diaper on her...

i am at what seems to be a border...could it be between VA and PA???, because over the barrier i am talking with Aaron, and he is a white oxford shirt & tie-wearing "Giant Food" manager...he is talking on the phone, but he is also talking with me...oh! it is so good to see him! we talk between the business interruptions...

i am at the porch & side yard area of my house...a very large flock of birds comes around the trees nearby...it is beautiful and fascinating...there are people visiting, and i am talking with them when i notice a new influx of birds, but this is really unusual & remarkable, for a tremendous flock of parrots has arrived! I gasp as i notice the first one, which lands on the screen and squawks...i hurry to look outside; it is a living rainbow! parrots everywhere...then i also notice cockatoos, cockatiels and african greys! they are all over, and many children are looking at them and milling around amongst them!

Books & Beers...

2011-02-15T08:21:00.000-05:00

While reading 'Shadowrise' and 'Shadowheart' by Tad Williams, I was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy this quality craft beer selection: "Punk IPA", "Oxymoron", "Islander IPA", "Sanctuary", "Glacier Harvest '10" from Harpoon Brewery's 100 Barrel series; a wet hop ale, "Creek Ale" from Chatoe Rogue's First Growth series using their own hops & barley, and "Reunion '10" from Terrapin; a Belgian style scotch ale. (more details to follow)

dream segment

2011-01-16T10:24:00.002-05:00

I am incinerating a huge pile of clothing when i realize wait!!! i could be donating these in the Planet Aid box!!! so i stop and begin to collect...

My Last Wineglass

2011-01-14T20:26:00.000-05:00

Craft Brew 2010

2011-01-01T11:11:00.009-05:00

Theobroma – Dogfish Head Craft Brewery, Milton DE
The “CENSORED” - Lagunitas Brewing Company, Petaluma CA
Pale Ale – Mountaineer Brewing Company, Martinsburg WV
Porter – Duck Rabbit
Milk Stout – Duck Rabbit
Samurai – Great Divide
Octoberfest – Stoudts...
Little Sumpin' – Lagunitas...
ESB – Mad Fox
Best Brown Ale – Bell's...
Belgian Black – Blue Mountain...
Pumpkin Ale – Vintage 50...
Dry Hopped Bitter – Vintage 50...
Fall Festivus Ale – Cricket Hill, NJ
Hell Or High Watermelon - 21^st Amendment Brewery
Porter – Thirsty Dog
Warrior IPA – Left Hand...
Fresh Hop pale ale – Great Divide...
Chocolate Bock – Samuel Adams...
Holiday Porter- Samuel Adams...
Encore – Magic Hat...
Odd Notion Winter '10 – Magic Hat...
India Copper Ale – Saranac...
Lake Effect Lager – Saranac...
Vanilla Stout – Saranac...
Yellow Snow IPA - Rogue....

this is not a full list, as I suffered some data loss earlier in the year...

Books Read 2010

2011-01-01T11:11:00.008-05:00

Saigon, Illinois by Paul Hoover
Ellen Foster by Kaye Gibbons
Breaking & Entering by Joy Williams
The Last Election by Pete Davies
Promise Of The Wolves by Dorothy Hearst
Dancing In The Dark by Janet Hobhouse
Cryptonomicon by Neal Stephenson
Methland by Nick Reding
True Confections by Katherine Weber
Life & Fate by Vasily Grossman
Timbuktu by Paul Aster
Just Kids by Patti Smith
Oscar Wilde by Richard Ellmann
Walt Whitman/A Life by Justin Kaplan
The Color of Magic by Terry Pratchett
Road Dogs by Elmore Leonard
The Elegance of the Hedgehog by Muriel Barberry
The Weaker Vessel by Antonia Fraser
The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir
Pure Lust by Mary Daly
Outercourse by Mary Daly, 1992
Quintessence by Mary Daly, 1998
The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins, 2006
The Greatest Show On Earth by Richard Dawkins, 2009
American Fascists, by Chris Hedges, 2006
Murder In The Name Of Honor by Rana Husseini, 2009
The World Without Us by Alan Weisman, 2007
Composed by Rosanne Cash, 2010
The Man Who Was Thursday by G.K. Chesterton

this is not a full list as I suffered some data loss earlier in the year...

Make Mine VA Wine 2010

2011-01-01T11:11:00.006-05:00

Cabernet Franc - 2006, Marterella...
Riesling - 2008, La Grange...
Pinot Gris 2009, Toll Gate Winery & La Grange...

Films Viewed 2010

2011-01-01T11:11:00.003-05:00

Tenacious D in "The Pick of Destiny" (Liam Lynch), 2006

W. (Oliver Stone), 2008

Lords of Dogtown (Catherine Hardwicke), 2005

Alice In Wonderland (Tim Burton), 2010 **at the theatre**

Food, Inc. (Robert Kenner), 2008

Dreamgirls

Beer Wars (Anat Baron), 2009

Kick Ass (Matthew Vaughn), 2010 **at the theatre**

9, (Shane Acker), 2009

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Toy Story 3 **at the theatre**

Inception **at the theatre**

Salt **at the theatre**

The Kids Are All Right **at the theatre**

Scott Pilgrim vs The World **at the theatre**

The Yes Men (Ollman, Price,Smith), 2003

Wendy and Lucy (Kelly Reichardt), 2008

The Informant! (Stephen Soderbergh), 2009

Invictus (Clint Eastwood), 2009

Winter Solstice

2010-12-21T20:29:00.000-05:00

dream segment...

2010-12-19T09:11:00.002-05:00

i dream that i meet george harrison's son...he brings his child over to play...as we are talking, i try to tell him about a newspaper article i read, and about parts of rosanne cash's book 'Composed' that had to do with his father and how that impacted me, but there were many distractions and i was not being very articulate...that was frustrating, but as we talked i thought about how he is probably weary of talking about his father with people anyway...

"Record Store Day" dream...

2010-12-15T09:40:00.003-05:00

i am driving/walking in Fairfax looking for Record and Tape Exchange...find the store and we walk across the street up to the door...there are two employees standing outside having a chat, one of them opens the door for me as we approach and makes a bit of small talk...i realize that i have forgotten the LPs that i wanted to exchange, so i won't have any money to get the Decemberists new single that i wanted, but i am going to browse anyway...there is another customer coming in, she is a regular, we say "hellos" as she walks by, she's got lots of tattoos and turquoise jewelery and long graying blond/brown hair...i find a couple of Grateful Dead box sets that are partial sets so i look at the booklets...later i find two Mandrill LPs from the late 1970's, and i get very excited...i stand there trying to figure out how i can buy them even though i have no money right now...

State of Mind rant: feel free to ignore

2010-12-10T09:10:00.004-05:00

Even though i promised myself a "new beginning" on December 1st (began new job that day...), i have yet to truly connect with that in any real sense. I am not at all close to that feeling of self, alive and centered. I feel blocked, yet I know that possibility and growth are within my reach. I have an awareness, but seem unable to fully act. Unless I am making excuses: too cold, too stressed about $$$, etc. I'll be better when: this happens, or this happens, or? Circular thought patterns bringing me right back to here. Here and now? yes, but static. I need to take time, yes, but i need to focus. Not slipping back into depression, but almost. Need to go for a walk, need to go alone, guilt about not taking my dog along, she needs a long walk too, so i don't go. So what gets accomplished? Nothing. I was beginning to get organized and felt really good about that, but then I ran out of money (needed for some projects like CD case, etc.) so must wait for first paycheck to get bills paid, then the cold weather hit, and must wait for new heating system to be installed before moving on with projects because the cold really zaps my energy levels. Plus adjusting to the new job. I do miss the grocery store. (NOT that hell-hole in Alexandria, though. whew.) I am anxious about not making enough $$$ to pay my bills. I need to go full-time as soon as I can. I need a second job until then. I need to take my camera everywhere with me again. I need a good cry to get this all out of my system. I need to remember that I am a good person, and let go of all the negativity that I have accumulated from relationships past.

Beer And A Book

2010-11-30T08:04:00.002-05:00

Far overdue, this latest installment of the much-loved (by few) series. This episode brings us a Vanilla Stout from Saranac in New York. Brewed with Chocolate and Caramel Malts and vanilla. Smooth and tasty, perfect for this cold night, quaffing and reading; 'The Greatest Show On Earth' by Richard Dawkins. Showing his sense of humor all over the place, Dawkins gives us the facts in an anecdotal style.

And check this out: Sam Calagione has his OWN beer & a book pairings to share...

My Applications

2010-11-24T02:00:00.014-05:00

Wegman's - five rejection e-mails...
Whole Foods
Costco
Target - one rejection e-mail...
Lowe's - two rejection e-mails...& 1 call plus interview = HIRED
Staples
Bed Bath & Beyond
Borders
Trader Joe's
Safeway
Giant - & interview = HIRED
SERVE
Clock Tower Thrift
The Farm at Broad Run
Foster's Grill
The Fauquier Bank
Barrel Oak Winery
Three Fox Vineyards
Total Wine
Barnes & Noble
Pet Smart
Bloom
CVS
Port City Brewing Company
28 North Custom Beer Company
Chrysalis Vineyards

Help Cookie Monster host Saturday Night Live

2010-11-24T00:43:00.000-05:00

everywhere, some beauty to be found...

2010-11-16T00:33:00.002-05:00

rain-soaked leaves lay sparkling
gem-like
on the shiny asphalt road
wind-strewn
a carpet glittering
on the long midnight road
sharp intake of breath
and quick smile
on the late-night road
home

State Of Mind

2010-11-15T23:44:00.003-05:00

I think that I have reached the point where I have worked through the stress of the lay-off & transfer to this store that I call The Hell-Hole. I am now left with the depression. This is not my favorite state of mind, by any means. I am not very functional when I am depressed. Indeed, who is? I have put out so many applications to so many open jobs this past month, and have received zero calls. I have gotten three rejection e-mails, however. (Seriously, "Wegman's"?) For instance, today I hid in bed for five hours. Sleeping and dreaming. Letting my subconscious deal with all of it! My body aches from lack of "exercise". My mind aches from the worry and dissatisfaction. I am trying to focus on the positive; I have a job. I am also trying to better my situation; applying for jobs and talking to people/contacts. So I think that I am dealing fairly well with the whole situation, I just worry that I am overlooking something. Truly, tomorrow, I must work out or hike. Do some yoga. Nothing heals depression like "exercise"...movement...focus and breathing...

dream piece featuring Kevlar...

2010-11-08T01:37:00.003-05:00

i am at work, doing programming...i am over by produce when i hear Kevlar's voice on the intercom system, the phone is off the hook at the register where he is working, so i can hear everything that he is saying...he has just said something about sex to his customer! i say to the co-worker near me, "did i just hear kevin say that?" and i walk over to his register to let him know that he needs to hang up the phone...he is dressed in a very dapper brown suit, and still having fun talking with his customer! it's also fun when i let him know that the whole store has just heard all that he's said! oops!

early morning reflection...

2010-11-04T07:14:00.000-04:00

dream segment...

2010-10-30T06:35:00.001-04:00

i am having to ward off demonic possession...repeated attacks...the way to do this is by very precise breathing techniques and chanting/toning/screaming to a particular volume level and intensity...a woman is leaning over me, up in my face and i cannot tell if she is benevolent or demonic so i begin my breathing and chanting as she speaks into my face...

This is where I wake up, because my "ghostly moaning" woke up my daughter, who texted me, then came into my room to make sure that I was o.k.! Apparently that last vocalization of mine was out loud and very scary-sounding.

Life

2010-10-07T17:47:00.000-04:00

Yeah, so...i got laid off from work today.

Angry Beavers

2010-10-05T02:11:00.000-04:00

While I do not appear to be completely awake, I do have my coffee and Washington Post in hand.

this is not haiku

2010-10-01T09:48:00.000-04:00

steaming leaf compost pile
early autumn morning

Brown Cotton 9/29/2010

2010-09-30T14:41:00.001-04:00

abandoned
on the road-
Unconditional Glove

Seeking balance & contentment...

2010-06-29T12:40:00.002-04:00

The worst thing is when you let a man get inside your head. They take up way too much emotional space. They fill your head with their thinking patterns, and you begin to self-check yourself based on their criteria. It is toxic. For instance my new job position entails working four late shifts. This only seems to be a problem for me to adjust to because of the man who lives with me. This guilt and stress I feel when I sleep until 11 a.m.? Based on his patterns and perceptions. I have realized this, and will work to remove this negative mindset. Because I am OVER being depressed, and I want to be happy again.

Memories...

2010-06-28T02:02:00.001-04:00

Back in the late 1960's, early 70's, whenever we drove through Georgetown, D.C. my father would make us lock the doors of the car. So the hippies wouldn't get us. Yes, my father voted for Richard Nixon.

Near Death By Friend

2010-06-23T23:46:00.002-04:00

Driving to work in the afternoon i am almost hit head-on by a huge pickup which was all over in my lane. The truck swerved quickly to avoid impact. Felt the wind on that one. Cussing a blue streak, heart pounding. Make it to work alive, yay! Later on that evening Daisy's sister comes in the store and i holler out a hello to her. She asks me didn't she see me earlier on the road, just missed hitting me? I am stunned! It was somebody i know! I tell her does she have any idea how much i was cussing her? Told her to stay on her side of the road, jeez! What the hell? So she asks if her sis is still there and just roams on off. Whoah.

Tuliptree Silkmoth sighting...

2010-05-31T00:57:00.003-04:00

I found a Tuliptree Silkmoth today. It was napping on some moss underneath a mountain laurel. Beautiful. When I brought Chuck over to show him, it flew up up and away. I did not take a photo, I am sorry to say. So here's a link to some info and photos about this beautiful North American moth. Here is a good photo, as well.

tiny VW dream piece...

2010-05-17T01:08:00.002-04:00

i dreamed of Volkswagens, lots and lots of VWs everywhere, because it was "Bug-Out" weekend...

And of course, "Bug-Out" weekend is coming up soon, check it out here...

'Rhiannon is a Dog Hero' dream...

2010-04-23T12:22:00.002-04:00

there is a serious storm approaching, and we are all feeling a bit apprehensive...Rhiannon escapes out the door, and does not come back when i call her, i am very worried...when she later returns, she has rounded up and brought home a number of black labs in various sizes...when i open the screen door for her, she rounds them up and herds them into the house, then she jets out the door again...when she returns, she has brought a few yellow labs & golden retrievers, and does the same herding inside procedure, then she is off again...she brings back two chocolate labs, one of them quite old...we tend to the oldster and bring them all inside...i am quite proud of Rhiannon, she is a dog hero...she wanted all the dogs to be in a safe place for the impending storm...

The Beauty of Life

2010-04-23T11:38:00.002-04:00

At 1:35 a.m. this morning, I heard a whippoorwill! It has been decades since I heard one. My spirit soars in joy.

Uno Haiku

2010-04-19T12:30:00.001-04:00

whistling to The Fray, a
white guy in blue tie
branches bend in the Spring wind

Brewpub Dream...

2010-03-29T10:15:00.002-04:00

i am interviewing for a job at a very cool-looking brewpub...part of the test i am taking involves sniffing sneakers and identifying which beer had been poured and served in each one! crazy! i am not doing so good, but it doesn't seem to matter, even though the guy testing me has a very serious, severe demeanor...at a later point he tells me that i am not to talk with the other female employees, some thing about avoiding sexual harassment, and i am thinking WTF? i also have a feeling that the other women just kind of blow this crap off, because they have all been friendly with me, and talkative!...there is a delightful variety of beer, both in bottle and on tap...learning the beers, i get to taste samples & apparently you are allowed one beer a day when at work...the t-shirts are also very cool, each featuring a different beer...i am being taught the proper glass-cleaning procedure and serving techniques...hanging around with some of my co-workers after my shift; a dark-haired woman show buys me a beer, wearing glasses and full of smiles & kindness, a buzz-cut guy who is warm and silly and asks for a smooch on the forehead...lots of hugs given here...coming back the next day for my shift, one of the guys & i race to grab an oatmeal stout "for breakfast"! what fun!

Children are people too. Really.

2010-03-10T02:39:00.003-05:00

At work last Sunday evening, two of my co-workers and I were having a conversation that touched on children "hating" their parents. M. said that her 17-year old son hates her. T. said that if our kids don't hate us at 17 that we are not doing our job. He said that our job is not to be friends with our kids, but to teach them.
I have heard and read this stance before. I disagree. Why have children if you cannot be friends with them? Why does "teaching" them preclude being their friend? Does being a child's friend mean that you cannot teach them anything? Does being a child's friend as a parent mean that you do not discipline them? It brings to mind the time that a previous co-worker of mine saw me in my car with my infant daughter, she saw me talk to my daughter. She expressed amazement that I would be talking to my daughter, "as if she were a person". Yes, that's a quote. I told her that actually, my daughter IS a person, and yes I speak to her as such. Well, I do have a role model in all this. My mother loved me, was a fantastic parent to me, and was my friend. She taught me much in life. I can only hope that I am anywhere near as good a parent to my daughter as my mother was to me.

American Takfiris

2010-03-06T23:47:00.002-05:00

American Takfiris - Politics - The Atlantic

This is a beautiful, intelligently written piece by Adam Serwer. Read and comment.

Waning Gibbous Moon

2010-03-04T13:05:00.002-05:00

no amount of caffeine could stop the
somniferous muffin
from sending me to dreams
of convergent orgasms

dream segment...

2010-03-02T07:29:00.002-05:00

i am at work, walking around the store straightening & collecting de-shops in a cart...there are a lot of hidden crannies and nooks in the store layout...at the magazine rack i find two empty 1 liter bottles of wine that someone has roughly opened and consumed, i am thinking how did we not catch them doing that? i put the bottles into the cart and continue...making my way around the store i encounter Mr. North working, and we exchange little jokes and encouragement to each other as we pass...i find a hidden corner which has a door that leads outside to a small courtyard, triangle-shaped with a fenced-in area...it is raining...i see a gray squirrel scampering about & when he/she sees me, he looks at me and moves a little closer...i must find some food for this little guy!, so i go back in the store and put together two peanut butter and bird seed globs for the squirrel, as i am doing this, Mr. North comes around through the area and we chat a wee bit about what i am doing...as i go back outside to put the cakes out for the squirrel, he comes right on over, albeit a bit cautiously, and sniffs at the cakes as i put them down, then begins to nibble...

what there is

2010-02-26T02:00:00.000-05:00

At the (my) center there
is no spark - there is
A sorrow that is not
sweet melancholy -
that is
a vacant hollow, an oppressive
inertia

Hearth With Mirror

2010-01-29T22:21:00.003-05:00

Firewood self-portrait. "The Kind Dyes" VW symbol t-shirt. December 2005.

Cookie Monster House

2010-01-29T22:04:00.000-05:00

Here is a favorite place of mine. You know who you are. I love you.

A Book & Many Beers

2010-01-28T08:50:00.008-05:00

When I finished reading 'Life and Fate' by Vasily Grossman, I was saddened beyond belief that it was over. I could have read about all those characters for at least another 880 pages. What a fabulous book. Since it was such a big read, a lot of new craft brews were consumed during the reading process. Among them: Chatoe Rogue's "Dirtoir Black Lager. Bell's "Hopslam Ale". Sierra Nevada's "Glissade".

Howard Zinn, Peoples's Historian

2010-01-28T07:13:00.003-05:00

The amazing, much loved & respected historian and author Howard Zinn died of a heart attack yesterday. I will miss this speaker of truth. His 'A People's History of the United States' will always be a must-read.

Tornado dream...

2010-01-22T09:33:00.002-05:00

i am at the home of a friend...a storm is on the way, we look out the window, i see five tornadoes coming our way...i call out to her about this, she and i run to the basement...i am looking for someplace for us to crouch down under for safety, but she sits on one of the two couches with a pillow, i sit on the other couch which faces her, i also have a pillow...we talk a little bit, but mostly we listen...after a while we no longer hear the loud rush of the storm, so i walk upstairs and notice sunlight peeking out from the clouds...there are other people in the upstairs rooms looking around also...i tell my friend that all is clear, the storm has passed us by...looking out, i can see where the tornadoes touched down around us...there is some debris scattered about...the sky has moving clouds of dark gray and white, patches of blue show through, the storm can be seen far in the distance, moving on...

Dream segment...

2010-01-21T06:36:00.003-05:00

i am at a large gathering of people for a music event...each person performing is playing one song...i am going to play Leonard Cohen's "Suzanne" on guitar...i have not cleaned my guitar in a while, so i am looking for something to use for this purpose on the store shelves behind the seating area...i find some baby oil, and say "this will do"...there is a guy i know there who is being helpful...i am next to perform, i get my instrument and walk over to a folding chair, i say "hi!" as i look around the room at everyone...a man seated in front of me says, "just play the song"...there is silence in the room as i leaf through my music book for the song, i think about how i should have practiced so that i wouldn't need the music...i find the song and begin to play, soon i am lost and begin to just make it all up...i am singing with a lot of feeling, however, even if my strumming is a bit bland...somehow i bring it all to a close, one of the guitar strings has frayed, i laugh quietly to myself about this...in the underwhelming aftermath of my performance, i lean over to the person next to me and ask, "am i supposed to play another song?", she replies, "no, just one"...i am glad, as i did not know what i would have played...

Beer & a new cookbook...

2010-01-08T10:16:00.002-05:00

RastafaRye from Blue Point Brewing Company in New York. A delicious copper ale made with rye malt and west coast hops. Blue Point donates portions of the sales of this ale to help needy Caribbean children through Tajandadowa.

"Clean Food" by Terry Walters. I like this format, the sections being divided by season. We are making "Bok Choy and Mung Bean Sprout Saute with Peanuts and Scallions" first. See some interesting recipes here.

Ninja Dream

2010-01-04T20:39:00.007-05:00

i dream an action/adventure segment featuring Tomoe Gozen...

I am not sure if I was Gozen, or observing her. The dream was action-packed. When I awoke, I was amazed and thrilled that I had dreamed such a thing. I have not read the Tomoe Goze n books by Jessica Amanda Salmonson since the 1980's, when they were first published.

Films Viewed 2009

2010-01-01T20:49:00.003-05:00

King Corn (Aaron Wolf), 2007
The Darjeeling Limited (Wes Anderson), 2007
Be Kind Rewind (Michel Gondry), 2008
Volver (Pedro Almodovar), 2007
Run Fat Boy, Run (David Schwimmer), 2007
Appaloosa (Ed Harris), 2008
Gone Baby Gone (Ben Affleck), 2007
Coraline (Henry Selick), 2009 **at the theatre**
Brokeback Mountain (Ang Lee), 2005
Troy (Wolfgang Petersen), 2004
Shadow of A Doubt (Alfred Hitchcock), 1943
Screamers (Carla Garapedian), 2006
Milk (Gus Van Sant), 2008
Body of Lies (Ridley Scott), 2008
Into The Wild (Sean Penn), 2007
Away From Her (Sarah Polley), 2006
Humboldt County (Grodsky & Jacobs), 2008
Slacker Uprising (Michael Moore), 2007
Step Brothers (Adam McKay), 2008
State of Play (Kevin MacDonald), 2009
Pineapple Express (David Gordon Green), 2008
Star Trek (J.J. Abrams), 2009
A Good Year (Ridley Scott), 2005

Year of Virginia Wine 2009

2010-01-01T20:48:00.003-05:00

Barbera - 2006, Barboursville Vineyards, Barboursville
Meritage - 2006, First Colony Winery, Charlottesville (52% Petit Verdot, 48% Cabernet Franc)
DeChiel Reserve Cabernet Franc - 2005, Rockbridge Vineyard Inc., Raphine
Cabernet Franc - 2006, Jefferson Vineyards, Charlottesville
Toscanello - 2005, Villa Appalaccia Winery Inc., Floyd (65% Cabernet Franc, 25% Sangiovese, 10% Primitivo)
Viognier - 2006, Michael Shaps, King Family Vineyards, Crozet
Rosalie's Rose - 2006, Marterella - Prince Michel Vineyard & Winery, Leon
Meritage - 2007, The Winery at La Grange, Haymarket
Vidal Blanc - 2006, Marterella...
Vignoles - 2006, Rockbridge Vineyard, Raphine
Viognier - 2008, La Grange...
"Simpatico" - Villa Appalacia Winery, Floyd
Rose - 2008, Barrel Oak Winery, Delaplane
Bowhaus White - 2008, Barrel Oak....
Seyval Blanc - 2008, Barrel Oak...
Blanc de Blanc - 2005, Kluge Estates, Charlottesville
Albemarle Sauvingnon Blanc - 2008, Kluge Estates...
Albemarle Simply Red - 2005, Kluge Estates...
New World Red - 2005, Kluge Estates...

Year of Craft Beer 2009

2010-01-01T20:46:00.001-05:00

Dark Starr Stout - Starr Hill Brewery, Charlottesville VA
Odd Notion - Spring '09 - Magic Hat Brewing Company, South Burlington VT
HI.P.A. - Magic Hat...
Legend Brown Ale - Legend Brewing company, Richmond VA
Messiah Bold - He'Brew by The Shmaltz Brewing Company, Saratoga Springs NY
Hop Devil India Pale Ale - Victory Brewing Company, Downingtown PA
Storm King Imperial Stout - Victory...
Brown Ale - The Brooklyn Brewery, Brooklyn NY
Hop Wallop - Victory...
Genesis Ale - He'Brew...
Washington's Porter - Williamsburg AleWerks, Williamsburg VA
Hazed & Infused - Boulder Beer Company, Boulder CO
Sierra Nevada ESB: Early Spring Beer - Sierra Nevada Brewing Company, Chico CA
Old Brown Dog Ale - Smuttynose Brewing Company, Portsmouth NH (label features Olive)
Troegenator (Doublebock) - Troegs Brewing Company, Harrisburg PA
Leinenkugel's Classic Amber - Jacob Leinenkugel Brewing Company, Chippewa Falls WI
IPA - Lagunitas Brewing Company, Petaluma CA
IPA - Smuttynose...
Blackberry Witbier - Samuel Adams...
Stone IPA - Stone Brewing Company, Escondido, San Diego County CA
Double Bock - Imperial Series - Samuel Adams...
Imperial White - Imperial Series - Sam Adams...
Oatmeal Porter - Highland Brewing Company, Asheville NC
Wacko - Summer Seasonal - Magic Hat...
Odd Notion - Summer '09 - Magic Hat...
Lucky Kat - Magic Hat...
Witte - Brewery Ommehang, Cooperstown NY
Torpedo Extra IPA - Sierra Nevada...
Road Dog Porter - Flying Dog Brewery, Denver CO ("Good Beer. No Shit")
1888 Bock - Leinenkugel Brewing...
Unearthly IPA - Southern Tier Brewing Company, Lakewood NY
Scarlet Lady Ale - E.S.B. - Stoudts Brewery, Adamstown PA
The Love - Starr Hill...
Anniversary Ale - Sierra Nevada
Golden Ale - Legend Brewing...
Oberon Ale - Bell's Brewery, Comstock MI
Organic UR Pils - Brauerei Pinkus Muller, Munster Germany
Organic Hefeweizen - Pinkus...
Sunrise Weissbier - Victory...
Festbier - Victory...
Double India Pale Ale - Stoudts...
Harvest Fresh Hop Ale - Sierra Nevada...
Rye Pale Ale - Terrapin Beer Company, Athens GA
iniquity black ale - Southern Tier...
mokah - Southern Tier...
Depth Charge - Terrapin, with Left Hand Brewing & Jittery Joe's Coffee...
India Style Brown Ale - Terrapin...
Odd Notion - Fall 2009 - Magic Hat...
Lager - Legend Brewing...
Coney Island Freaktoberfest - Shmaltz...
Moonglow - Victory...
HOWL - Winter Seasonal - Magic Hat...
Odd Notion - Winter 2009 - Magic Hat...
Smoked Porter - Stone
Tripel - Belgian Style Ale - Red Hook Ale Brewery...
Organic Raspberry Ale - Samuel Smith @ Melbourn Brothers Brewery; Stamford, Lincolnshire
The Gift - Starr Hill...
Organic Cherry Ale - Samuel Smith...
Jewbelation Bar Mitzvah - He'Brew...
Hibernation Ale - Great Divide Brewing Company, Boulder CO
Merry Christmas Happy New Year 2009 - Anchor Brewing Company, San Francisco CA
Merry Monks' Belgian Style Golden Ale - Weyerbacher, Easton PA
Cabin Fever - New Holland Brewing Company, New Holland MI
Alta Gracia Coffee Porter - Wolaver's @ Otter Creek Brewing, Middlebury VT

Books Read 2009

2010-01-01T06:28:00.001-05:00

Angler by Barton Gellman, 2008
Bad Money by Kevin Phillips, 2008
Post Office by Charles Bukowski, 1971
The Blind Watchmaker by Richard Dawkins, 1986 (1996 edition)
Fermenting Revolution by Christopher Mark O'Brien, 2006
Family of Secrets by Russ Baker, 2009
Secrets: A Memoir of Vietnam and the Pentagon Papers by Daniel Ellsberg, 2002
Fire In The Lake by Frances FitzGerald, 1972
Back When We Were Grownups by Anne Tyler, 2001
Vietnam by Stanley Karnow, 1983
A Mercy by Toni Morrison, 2008
Bearing The Cross by David J. Garrow, 1986
Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs, 2002
Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell, 2004
A Wolf At The Table by Augusten Burroughs, 2008
Magical Thinking by Augusten Burroughs, 2004
The City & The City by China Mieville, 2009
Dry. by Augusten Burroughs, 2003
Possible Side Effects by Augusten Burroughs, 2006
Drop City by T.C. Boyle, 2003
The Story of Edgar Sawtelle by David Wroblewski, 2008
Against The Day by Thomas Pynchon, 2006
Blaze by Richard Bachman, 1973/2007
Promises To Keep by Charles de Lint, 2007
The Mystery of Grace by Charles de Lint, 2009
Endless Things by John Crowley, 2007
A Spot of Bother by Mark Haddon, 2006
Bodily Harm by Margaret Atwood, 1982
The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy, 1997
Tourist Season by Carl Hiaasen, 1986
Stormy Weather by Carl Hiaasen, 1995
'C' Is For Corpse by Sue Grafton, 1986
Girl With a Pearl Earring by Tracy Chevalier, 1999
Water For Elephants by Sara Gruen, 2006
Digging To America by Anne Tyler, 2006
The Theory of Everything by Lisa Grunwald, 1991
Foucault's Pendulum by Umberto Eco, 1988
Diary by Chuck Palahniuk, 2003
Wicked by Gregory Maguire, 1995
The Absence by Bill Hussey, 2009
The Cobra Event by Richard Preston, 1997
Just Above My Head by James Baldwin, 1978
Under The Dome by Stephen King, 2009
Angel Time by Anne Rice, 2009
Last Night In Twisted River by John Irving, 2009
The Sioux by Irene Handl, 1965
Loving Miranda by Aaron Ankers (unpublished)
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde,1890

Rum Balls & Sugar Cookies...

2009-12-26T10:19:00.000-05:00

Mom and I used to make rum balls every Christmas. Some rum for the cookies, some rum for us. She would take them to school to share with the teachers, who would swear they'd get tipsy. It felt good to make them with Melian this year, even though we didn't drink any rum when doing so!

Snow & a Beer

2009-12-22T11:00:00.002-05:00

Here is a delicious holiday brew, "Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2009" from Anchor Brewing Company in San Francisco, CA . Spicy and perfect for this past Saturday, when we got almost three feet of snow. Beautiful!

The book I am reading is 'The Picture of Dorian Gray' by Oscar Wilde. The edition is my mother's "Modern Library" selection from 1945. It is odd how poor the printing quality is.

Rep. Dennis Kucinich @ Lafayette Park Rally...

2009-12-15T13:57:00.002-05:00

linked to this article @ CommonDreams.org

Animal Mineral Vegetable

2009-12-15T11:37:00.004-05:00

downer cows
wolf killing in Alaska and Idaho
experiments on shelter animals

It is way past time for us humans to stop treating the other animals that live on this planet as objects for us to manipulate, abuse and consume.

Our human self-absorption and hubris amounts to nothing more than fallacy of thought; bringing destruction to the living earth on which we all live, and depend on for our survival.

All species co-exist and create a matrix for life and evolution, each with the other. Gaia Theory, partially, without the nihilism!

Thinking about this...

2009-12-14T22:05:00.004-05:00

My friend Kitty sent me a forward last week containing some platitudes which I do not even recall the gist of at this point. But I did scroll down quickly to just give it all a cursory glance. Catching my eye there at the bottom was this (origin unknown) quote:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in
sideways, chocolate in one hand, body thoroughly used up, totally worn
out, and screaming "WOOHOO! What a ride!"'

I'm eating all the leftovers.

2009-12-06T01:33:00.004-05:00

Nobody ever eats the last cookie. It sits in the cookie jar and dries out. The last sliver of pie always languishes on the plate. It sits there in the fridge desperately waiting. What is it about the last piece of cake that causes it to become so unappealing? Sitting in the fridge all alone? WHAT?

Albino Peacock sighting...

2009-12-01T22:00:00.002-05:00

While driving to music lessons this evening, my daughter and I saw an albino peacock walking through the woods. (No, I did not have my camera with me. Curses.) Jaw-dropping amazing. The one we saw was not fanned out at the time like this fellow.

I am madly in love with Stanley...

2009-11-24T21:24:00.002-05:00

Please visit the American Anti-Vivisection Society and consider donating your time and/or funds to enrich animal lives and stop the usage of our fellow animals as laboratory experiments.

URGENT: Action Alert at Coal River Mountain

2009-11-23T22:00:00.002-05:00

"We need you to stand with us to save Coal River Mountain.

Join us on Dec. 7 at 2pm at the West Virginia Dept. of Environmental Protection headquarters in Charleston, WV for a rally and protest to save Coal River Mountain.

Massey Energy is actively blasting and mining on Coal River Mountain in southern West Virginia. The blasting is taking place only a few hundred feet away from the Brushy Fork impoundment dam, which holds over 9 billion gallons of toxic coal sludge above the Coal River Valley. If the dam bursts, it is estimated that almost 1000 people who live, work and go to school would lose their lives."

Also see: Coal River Wind & Coal River Mountain Watch

"America's Favorite Animal Shelter"

2009-11-23T21:56:00.001-05:00

Fauquier SPCA is the shelter that I voted for in Care2 & Adopt-a-Pet's "America's Favorite Animal Shelter" contest. Please consider doing the same, or go vote for your own favorite!

We do NOT need more nuclear plants: "Three Mile Island radiation leak investigated"

2009-11-22T22:56:00.003-05:00

From CNN: " Authorities at Pennsylvania's Three Mile Island nuclear plant were investigating what caused a weekend radiation leak that resulted in 150 workers being sent home, officials said Sunday.

An airborne radiological contamination alarm sounded about 4 p.m. Saturday in the Unit 1 containment building, according to a statement from Exelon Nuclear, which operates the Three Mile Island plant near Middletown, Pennsylvania. The unit had been shut down since October 26 for refueling, maintenance and steam generator replacement, the company said.

"A monitor at the temporary opening cut into the containment building wall to allow the new steam generators to be moved inside showed a slight increase in a reading and then returned to normal," the company said. "Two other monitors displayed normal readings."

Three Mile Island was the scene of the worst U.S. nuclear accident, a partial meltdown in 1979 that resulted in the plant's second reactor being shut down permanently.

Tests showed the contamination in Saturday's incident was confined to the building itself, and none was found outside, Exelon said. There was no threat to public health and safety, but the workers were sent home because they could not continue until the area was cleaned, Bill Noll, Exelon vice president, said in the Saturday statement.

One worker was found to have received 16 millirem of exposure, and others received lower levels of contamination. The annual occupational dose limit for workers at Exelon plants is 2,000 millirem, the statement said.

Radiation exposure from a chest X-ray is about 6 millirem, according to the Nuclear Regulatory Commission.

Although Noll said it was hoped work would resume at Unit 1 on Sunday, Exelon spokeswoman Beth Archer told CNN on Sunday it had not resumed, as the cause of the leak was still under investigation.

Two radiation specialists from the NRC were scheduled to investigate Sunday. "Numerous work activities were going on in the building at the time the alarm sounded, and Exelon engineers are working to determine the cause of the incident," the statement said." read the full article here...

Virginia Wine & Canadian Cheese extended weekend...

2009-11-22T22:13:00.007-05:00

I have been giving wine & cheese tastings at work all weekend. Will continue to do so Monday & Tuesday as well. Tastings of five Kluge Estate wines, and five complementing cheeses (Canadian imports). It has been very interesting and a lot of fun. I have sold three and a half cases of wine so far. Much, MUCH more than the main office thought that I would sell. They predicted that I would sell 7 bottles. Total. I have sold out of three of the wines! Had we received an adequate amount of wines in our shipment, I could have sold much more. I have had to tell many of my customers to return on Monday. So, the frustration has been that I could give my customers a taste of something that I could not actually SELL them because I had to wait until Monday to get more back in stock. Then today it came to not even having any left in the sample bottles for two of the wines. I could only tell my customers about the wine, and implore them to return Monday. But back to the people; there have only been two "spitters". I only had one "wine snob". There have been quite a few who said that they only liked sweet wine, who found out that they liked the dry wines. Then again there was the one young lady who said that she only liked wine if it "tasted like a 'Slurpee'", but she was a fun customer. There were some people who would ask me questions about the wine & the cheese; the SAME questions, four or five times in a row. And, happily,there were many people who were delighted at what I was sharing with them, and we had fabulous conversations about wine & life.

What I sampled out: Blanc de Blanc (2005), Sauvignon Blanc (2008), Simply Red (2004), Kluge Estate New World Red (2005), and Cru.

Beautiful Grey

2009-11-19T11:48:00.005-05:00

It is an absolutely gorgeous grey misty rainy day. While taking a walk with Rhiannon earlier, Jesse Colin Young's song "Grey Day" (part of the "California Suite" on the "Light Shine" album from 1974) kept playing in my mind.

Beer And A Book...

2009-11-16T14:18:00.000-05:00

I was enamored of Stone Brewing Company's IPA all Summer long. Now, I have found a beer of their making, just as exciting, to quaff all Winter long: "Smoked Porter". Oh, the taste buds rejoice! Peat-smoked malt!

Stephen King's latest book is a delight. In the upper echelon of his output. Huge book, 1075 pages. Another plus, as far as I am concerned. I read it in four days, it never bogged down.

Poke Sky

2009-11-16T12:24:00.001-05:00

Lenah

2009-11-14T14:15:00.001-05:00

there is snoring coming from behind the woodstove in the key of G

Great news for wolves!

2009-11-14T11:24:00.003-05:00

"The U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service and environmentalists have reached an agreement Friday that scraps a controversial rule the agency had used to kill or permanently remove any wolf that killed three heads of livestock in a year.

Fish and Wildlife spokesman Tom Buckley says the rule "will no longer stand."

He says the agency has ways to deal with livestock kills "and remains committed to assisting the local livestock operators in any negative impacts they may have related to wolves."

Environmentalists complained the three-strikes rule favored the ranching industry and was a major roadblock to the effort to recover the species in the wild. Ranchers responded the policy targets wolves that grow accustomed to preying on cattle.

Several environmental groups sued in May 2008, asking the U.S. District Court in Arizona to stop the removal policy." The Associated Press, November 14, 2009

"Evolve Happy" Update...

2009-11-14T11:18:00.004-05:00

My friend Roberto over at "Evolve Happy" has decided to be the sole contributor. He sent out an e-mail to David & I telling us of this decision last week. So no more Monday morning Doom & Gloom from me, or "Audio Treat of the Week" from DB. Please, however, continue to support EH.

Beer and a Book

2009-11-11T12:11:00.000-05:00

Magic Hat Brewery in Burlington, Vermont has created an amazing Winter Lager in its new offering called "Howl". The brew is dark and dusky and I love it.

After having this book on my library shelves since my "Crown Books" days, the 1980's, I have finally read 'Just Above My Head' by James Baldwin, which was published in 1979. And I am very glad that I did. His writing was so very deep, emotional and insightful, that I have been inspired to seek out more books by him. He died of stomach cancer in 1987.

How I Feel Today.

2009-10-28T10:01:00.002-04:00

I've got to go to work!
It's a thing I'd rather shirk.
But then I wouldn't get paid
no progress would be made
and I'd feel like a jerk.

Seeing a memory with the mind's eye...

2009-10-27T08:07:00.004-04:00

I have a visual memory of an event I did not actually see.

While bicycling north, James & I stopped at a grassy place below the parking lot of a roadside motel. We sat down to meditate*. While doing so (eyes closed), I heard a human holler at his dog. I heard the dog come running up to us. I heard and felt the dog sniff me. I am certain that the dog was a German Shepherd. All this happened and yet I continued my meditation. I have always felt that the dog did not bite me because I was so obviously non-threatening. Centered and peaceful.

This event happened in 1976. The other day I mentioned to one of my customers at work that it had been my goal to leave the country for the Bicentennial. She looked very puzzled and asked me, "Why?". I said it seemed like the thing to do. Really! Remember all of the crass commercialization centered around the Bicentennial? Oh, irony.

*Transcendental Meditation

dream piece...

2009-10-18T21:53:00.002-04:00

i am driving and Melian is my passenger...there is snow on the ground, it is still snowing...i pull out onto the main road; there was plenty of room to do so, but the car behind me dangerously pulls up close and then passes our car...then they slow down, and fire two shots at our car! i am freaking out, this is crazy! i am very angry...they turn into a gas station, so i pull into the gas station also...the driver gets out, and she walks back toward me as i am getting out of my car...we start yelling at each other...a police cruiser pulls into the parking lot and handcuffs her...another driver had seen what she had done, and called the cops...i give my statement to one of the cops...she yells some stuff at me as the officer puts her into the cruiser...i talk with another one of the officers about the situation, Melian stands by and then tells him what she saw too...