Poetry Headquarters: 2011

Friday, December 30, 2011

dream segment

melian has decided to start riding her bicycle to school as a way to lessen stress, and improve her life in general...she leaves a little later each time as she gets used to it, and gets better at it...on this day, we talk a little bit before she leaves about this strategy of hers...i watch her pedal down the road...i recline on my bed for a bit, then she returns! she is having a bad time, a bit of stress, she is sorrowful and tearful...she stretches out on the bed and we talk about all of this...the talking feels good, and we resolve some stuff...

Sunday, November 20, 2011

the never-ending tape loop in my head...

I am surrounded by beauty. I am walking a path strewn with negativity. I have a positive outlook. I am surrounded by doom. I am having self-esteem issues. I get praise from others. I feel confident in my abilities. I am shown my own stupidity by co-workers. I have everything because of love. I have nothing because of money. I am proud. I am disappointed in myself. I am a good person. I am not a good person. That which I value is meaningful. What am I doing with my life besides working? No one understands what I am saying. I have close friends who understand. What is the first thing I think of upon awakening? Whatever I did wrong the day before. Self-loathing is too easy, but I have had help; you have no common sense, you put too much detail in when you talk...

This is all why I must remember to BE HERE NOW.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

dream segment

joanie is home, and having a party at her house...holly is among the numerous people at the party!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID

you can have this one, it's broken
i should have given you some of MY lettuce
i shouldn't have given you that one, it's worth money
i should have given you some of MY hostas
i thought you were going to call first
you would never have bought this for yourself
just don't ask him TOO many times
after all, this is MY kitchen
he doesn't like Leo women
i don't have time for your blog

Sunday, November 13, 2011

dream segment

i become part of a group of people doing an espionage maneuver...as we gather together to learn of our mission, we also get ready for our disguises...the woman who is leading us gives us our clothes...i am to wear a skirt suit with hose and heels...i say, "oh no! i haven't shaved my legs in a long time! this will be uncomfortable!"

Sunday, October 23, 2011

For Ram Dass

right now is
here
tree bones
across the trail
the colorization of the cricket's song
is the yellow
butterfly
on the
lavender asters

dream segment

i work at a brand new health food store. we are getting ready for our premier opening. many customers come in, business is good. i help two customers find the books they want. at the end of the day, there are many abandoned items, mostly deli cheeses. as i am taking them back, a co-worker comments that our stuff is expensive.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

yearning

mind like open space
eyes like glittering stars
the feeling
of the desire to communicate
the hope that it will
occur
the knowing of the depth and
possibility
the wondering and the joy
of the moment

no romance

reaching and reaching and
embracing
and the warmth of the holding
and
the feeling of the
connection
that's all, that's all
the reaching

Sunday, August 28, 2011

romantic dream

i am hanging out with dweezil zappa at his house...we are having a good time getting to know each other, and we begin to fall in love...at first i am afraid to kiss him because i think that my breath is bad, but then the kisses are so good i lose my fear...at one point he has on a white t-shirt with "zappa" and other designs written on it in charcoal...

dream piece

rhiannon is out in the yard and that is o.k. because she is not running off, but then she does run off...and she is gone...then there is another dog, and he is out in the yard and won't run off, and it is supposed to be o.k., but i worry...

Friday, August 12, 2011

'Girls To The Front' by Sara Marcus, 2010

Subtitled "The True Story of the RIOT GRRRL Revolution"...I was very excited to read this book, as I have been a proponent of riot grrrl from the outset. I found the subject matter of great interest but sadly did not enjoy Marcus' writing style. Be that as it may, I do recommend this to any music fan, feminist, or combination thereof. (Watch "Don't Need You: The Herstory of Riot Grrrl", directed by Keri Koch, 2005)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

the odd dream scrap here & there...

7/25 - dreamed of Lorraine & Amanda

7/27 - dreamed about Mary: she drove to the house in some huge vehicle (camper?) and had a rough time getting parked in the driveway. she brought Cherry Wheats with her...

Sunday, July 17, 2011

'Nausea' by Jean-Paul Sartre, 1938

Odd how this book did not come alive for me until the end, when the main character; Antoine Roquentin, meets with his previous love; Anny. It is after that meeting when he realizes so much more about existence, and seems to accept existence. It was difficult for me to relate to Roquentin's discomfort with and horror of organic life.

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

some dream segments

i go to cadence's house but she is not there, so i talk with her mom for a while...as i go through the front door, the foyer is quite dark...(the house is much different)...i am in the kitchen, and a few other rooms...

i stop by the leonard's house to visit

Monday, June 27, 2011

Tadpole Dream

i am driving through a town i do not know, when i see big rain puddles on either side of the road...i hear frogs, and see a young girl near the puddles exclaiming about tadpoles, so i stop to check it out...sure enough, there are many tadpoles in both big puddles, so i text Tammy to tell her that i found some tadpoles for Emily...i send her the names of the streets, and tell her to come meet me there...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Lessons Not Yet Learned

"Congress is not preparing to defend the people of the United States. It is planning to protect the capital of American speculators and investors.... Incidentally this preparation will benefit the manufacturers of munitions and war machines.... Strike against war, for without you no battles can be fought! Strike against manufacturing shrapnel and gas bombs and all other tools of murder! Strike against preparedness that means death and misery to millions of human beings! Be not dumb, obedient slaves in an army of destruction! Be heroes in an army of construction!"

-Helen Keller at Carnegie Hall January 5, 1916

Friday, February 25, 2011

An On-Going Thing Of Beauty...

This is The Style, and really; everyone MUST know. Please, join us in the wonderful, the exhilarating, "Pays-Bas Cycle Chic".

Let's Catch Up On Some Dreaming...

i have just had another baby...it seems to be my daughter again, like a melian junior. which is odd, but cool...i am nursing her in various different settings...people are talking with me, i am hanging out with friends, all is very happy...she does a big poo, so then i am putting her on the changing table for a new diaper...she becomes much like a doll as i turn her to clean her and try to put on the new diaper...in the stillness of her body she is more difficult to handle...she falls...she has on a miniature ball cap with the bill forward which protects her face...i pick her up and get the new diaper on her...

i am at what seems to be a border...could it be between VA and PA???, because over the barrier i am talking with Aaron, and he is a white oxford shirt & tie-wearing "Giant Food" manager...he is talking on the phone, but he is also talking with me...oh! it is so good to see him! we talk between the business interruptions...

i am at the porch & side yard area of my house...a very large flock of birds comes around the trees nearby...it is beautiful and fascinating...there are people visiting, and i am talking with them when i notice a new influx of birds, but this is really unusual & remarkable, for a tremendous flock of parrots has arrived! I gasp as i notice the first one, which lands on the screen and squawks...i hurry to look outside; it is a living rainbow! parrots everywhere...then i also notice cockatoos, cockatiels and african greys! they are all over, and many children are looking at them and milling around amongst them!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Books & Beers...

While reading 'Shadowrise' and 'Shadowheart' by Tad Williams, I was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy this quality craft beer selection: "Punk IPA", "Oxymoron", "Islander IPA", "Sanctuary", "Glacier Harvest '10" from Harpoon Brewery's 100 Barrel series; a wet hop ale, "Creek Ale" from Chatoe Rogue's First Growth series using their own hops & barley, and "Reunion '10" from Terrapin; a Belgian style scotch ale. (more details to follow)