dreams

neil young is playing a concert in a small venue which feels like my living room...pegi is there, in odd clothes...during one song, neil & i start dancing together, and i am awed at the fact that i am DANCING WITH NEIL YOUNG!!! 

i am troubleshooting things everywhere i go...many situations, many different places, many different people involved...but in each scenario, i fix whatever is wrong...

dream piece

melian and i are in a townhouse development, walking past the home where Lorraine lives...i say that's her house, and then she walks out of it down the sidewalk! i say look! there she is!...then i walk right up to her and say hello...she just looks at me, then mutters a hello, she seems to shy away from direct eye contact as for a few moments it seems there is something wrong with her face, i catch a shifting glimpse of three eyes where there should be one, and then that is gone...she is dressed in sweat pants and a baggy shirt...later she comes out of the house in her work clothes; a fast-food uniform of some sort

rain soaked leaf
releases
its tannins
onto concrete/as
atom bomb victims
leave
powder shadow photographs
of death

rough concepts

phases of moon
cycle of seasons
i am standing still
even as i am moving forward
soon will come the time when
time
means nothing to me

i am the universe expanding
at a rate
previously unknown

i am/full
to overflowing
with the [inter]connected-ness
of it all

thinking of one thing
leads to three more/and back around

step in here, and the current takes me
there/and back
around

who cannot sense the gestalt?
who cannot see the bigger picture?
the repercussions?                        
the impact?

bees
water
war

i am angry. i am afraid.

breathe deep
hold the negativity at bay
remember to find center
                    find ground
too much right now it's just/too much
catch the few glimmers of hope/joy/
                                       positivity
 let them shine/illuminate
the path to growth and be-ing

craving the ability to do something that i want to do when i want to do it, not have to put it off into some vague time in the future...REGAIN SPONTANEITY

systematically eliminating
financial burdens [will]
open new vistas of
possibility and
experience

come the healing
move through and
then beyond
the fear

More Beers with the same Book

Abita's "Abbey Ale", Avery Brewing's "duganA", Terrapin's "So Fresh & So Green,Green" and He'Brew's "Hop Manna IPA" all helped me read Game Of Thrones. Now ready for A Clash Of Kings.

Guest Blogger: Melian Moonstar's Dream

mom & i went to a huge grocery store and we had a cart and there was a big stage where Adam Duritz was performing...mom waved & said "hi" to him, and he started playing for her...he played the song that goes on about how nobody loves him...we went on shopping and then we sat at the cafe where the band was playing...i made a sandwich as Adam played, mom was screaming the whole time...i was calm, just making my sandwich...i am just smiling and making my sandwich...mom is screaming and adam is playing just for her...

showering thoughts

i want to paint the patterns
that appear
from behind my pressed
eyelids

writing while driving

fear is not necessary
a calm focus/ a sense of purpose
doing the best that i can/let go of negativity
i am moving out of the stress
re-establishing self esteem

stop the romance already-NO PROFIT
throw the I Ching
stand tall and proud-YOGA

a reminding poem (love Rhiannon)

fear is not necessary
a calm focus/sense of purpose
i'm doing the best i can/let go of negativity
i am moving out of the stress
re-establishing self-esteem

stop the Romance - no profit
throw the I Ching
stand tall and proud/ a yogi

Two Beers & A Book

Finally reading Game Of Thrones by George R. R. Martin after all this time! This first volume was published in 1996. The reading is going slowly due to my ridiculous work schedule, but these two DuClaw brews certainly make it smooth. "Double Black Lightning"; an American black ale, and "X-1" which is an Imperial chocolate porter. Brewery located in Abingdon, MD.

poem

and this is why i drove home
this way
this 
wedge of geese
flying from the open sky on the left
across the black tree limb sky
on the right, and on
on and on

Guest Blogger: Kay's Dream

Sandi and I were shopping for Christmas gifts for each other when we happened upon a shop in Manassas that was full of occult items. Things from different religions and cultures were everywhere. We fit right in there. There were colored feather necklaces that invoked the things you wanted in life and statues and medicinal herbs everywhere.

Books Read 2012

Ishmael by Daniel Quinn
Why Animals Matter by Erin Williams & Margo DeMello, 2007
Sea Of Slaughter by Farley Mowat, 1984
The Walking Dead: Volume 1,2,3 & 4
The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo by Steig Larsson, 2005
The Girl Who Played With Fire by Steig Larsson, 2006
Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg, 1993
How I Learned To Snap by Kirk Read, 2005
Valencia by Michelle Tea, 2000
Solstice by Joyce Carol Oates, 1985
A Mask For The General by Lisa Goldstein, 1987
The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle, 1968 (re-read)
Un Lun Dun by China Mieville, 2007
Waging Heavy Peace by Neil Young, 2012
The Wolf Gift by Anne Rice, 2012
Embassytown by China Mieville, 2011
Railsea by China Mieville, 2012
Under Wildwood by Colin Meloy, 2012
The Dirty Streets of Heaven by Tad Williams, 2012
The Wind Through The Keyhole by Stephen King, 2012