work then Eleven Eleven date with Kay. very wonderful.

 two pheasant one hawk drive to Vanish brewery

negatives & positives

unable to focus at all this morning. but hey!! two kestral drive to work.

Spring Fever

 panther did NOT want me to leave for work today, she even followed me to the door. i felt awful closing that door behind me. -----back home now, and so glad to be with them again. Pollux and Castor over Mars in the western sky. beautiful night.

 i dreamed of Rhiannon. it was so wonderful to feel her fur again, and see her face, see that tail wag.

not your average "one-hawk" drive

saw a hawk today so gorgeous it made my jaw drop. rust red head, throat and chest plumage. medium sized. just lovely.

 had to work the early "tag" shift today, but at least with melissa!! we finished early, so got cleared to leave. done and done. went to the library to pick up my requests. got home and just enjoyed myself reading, stacking firewood and being with my cats. a couple of great beers.

 all day reading, all day woodstove and cats. made an amazing dinner. gave up on everything at 8:30 p.m. took two melatonin and went to bed. read some more until they kicked in.

 bringing firewood in during light morning snow. two hawk drive to work. kaylie!! excellent conversation with odessa right before closing. home to cats and a warm fire with a good beer.

so far a good day off

 library visits, brewery visit, pet food store visit. received a delivery of firewood. text conversations with a few friends. some reading.

at least for now

the Sun still rises and the Moon still dances. the happiness and the dread hold each other closely.

gusting winds

the Moonrise tonight was/is stunning and centering and gorgeous. today at work we were all just ready for a nap. it is good to be home with cats and woodstove. soon, to read.

 a difficult day, didn't know whether to vomit or cry, or both. the rain was most welcome. at least i worked with melissa.

 woke today to beautiful skies and abject horror. the universe is fine but the USA government is not.

Venus shining bright

wake up early to Panther yelling for treats. once disbursed, back to bed for a couple more hours. nice cozy sleeping. went to do laundry and got some candles and savory pastries (took some to kaylie) and back home to read. fantastic day off.

unsettled awakening

if i am able to make it through this work day, i am finally off tomorrow. but oh, how very much i do not want to go in today. 

filling the bird feeder just now brought me the peacefulness i have been sorely in need of all day.

Just Say No to light pollution

 the Full Moon in Leo providing a delightful illumination to the snowfall which unfortunately also includes the blaring of That Fucking Streetlight, may it one day explode.

I am trying

 read the news, cut & split some firewood, made a salad to take to work. how many hawks will i see on the drive?

UPDATE: one hawk

 one kestrel one hawk drive to work. home to cat greetings, a good beer and warm fire.

 re-reading Hiding In Plain Sight by Sarah Kendzior

 had a wonderful text-conversation with elian about her further education plans. needed the positivity and excitement, so proud.

 ice on trees bushes everything all across the yard and up the mountain, shining clear and full of magic. afternoon brings warmer temperatures, and the glittering diamonds fall.

 split some firewood before the rain forecast to come tonight. then on to work. glad to see melissa, glad to be with kaylie and maria. we make it through.

52 degrees

 felt stodgy today. did a lot of reading, but no doing of tasks. finally just made myself get dressed and go out, i went to Great Mane brewery. they had a black IPA!! two hawk one kestral drive. gorgeous sunset!!! home to more reading, and a much better mind-set.

new scent profile

 warm shower all eucalyptus sea salt tea tree oil mint brings a peacefulness. two hawk, one kestral drive to work.

one Kestral, one Red-Tail Hawk

 day off from work!! doing things (slowly)!! WAIT i just heard a Hawk fly over "skreeee", so 2 hawks. *adding something here now* hey yeah, did the recycling and then my taxes. gonna get a fire going in the woodstove now, and then make a pizza. did some reading, will do more later. feel as good as one can be in these circumstances. *addition* Moon and Venus showing off in the Western sky right now.