Marvelous film.....

I just finished watching "Elling", as a matter of fact the credits are still rolling...it is absolutely amazing! Norwegian, 2001...directed by Petter Naess...must-see status!

poem.....

the moon transits into Taurus
and brings my menses
every lunation

productive Earth sign: moist and determined

i flow patient/sensual
i am intractable, and secure in my element
sometimes languid as i grow in the awareness of my body's expression
of self

i notice the changes that have begun
a different pace
a different pattern
the tides of a womon, the tides of a planet
feel the pull, feel the opening
feel the
beginning, feeding the
end

Aural emotional depth.....

i am listening to "With_Teeth" by NIN and composing a poem about menstruation...does this not seem like a fitting occupation for a Piscean Moon transit evening? I've got a blazing fire in the woodstove, and the windows open...warmth and fresh Spring air all at the same time...Lorraine teases me when i do this, but she doesn't complain...Chuck agrees with me that it's a cozy, wonderful feeling...now to switch gears: i had the oddest feeling today; that i've lost my ability to speak with any coherence! I swear, i don't know what the deal has been recently, but i have not been able to put my thoughts into words, vocally...tounge-tied, juggling words, drawing blanks; all that stuff...not my usual slick-tounged talkin' self at all...hhmmmm...great goddess somebody get that grrl a higher dose of Ginko Biloba and a shot of cocaine and turn her loose!

dream segment.....

i am driving an older model Ford pick-up, bright red with lots of chrome...my girlfriend is with me...the hood of the truck has a big, long chrome piece shaped like a slinking jaguar all down the middle...as i am driving, this middle piece makes it difficult to see whether i am in my lane properly or not! ...i must shift my vision to either the right or left to make sure i am not drifting over into the other lane! ...we come to a mountain pass which is snowed in, we get stuck...(i guess the truck is not 4-wheel drive??) so i get out to push us out of the snow...a polar bear comes charging up on my right...i feel fear, but she/he just sniffs me a lot, and then goes on over the roadway & down the embankment off to my left...i must have passed inspection! ...so i get us unstuck and on we go...we come to a nice camping area, others there are very friendly...

New Job.....

Yes, once again it's New Job Time for Sandi! I have changed jobs more this past year than ever before, it seems. But check this out, it's a good thing. I am assistant manager at a new ice-cream store owned/opened by a childhood friend. She has been asking me for a while to join her, and i have finally made that move. We just opened this past weekend, and it's great. We are going to have booming business at our location. And it's fun!...i am also appreciated for my hard work, and that means a lot. So, it's been rather hectic these past two weeks...getting ready-set-go for opening...both my reading & writing have suffered...but not the home projects! Chuck & i have almost finished the new retaining wall for the vegetable garden expansion! It's beautiful! It's huge, and mega-sturdy! 2,000 years from now it will still be standing, and future archeologists will be left in wonderment! But think about (back to the present) all the "extra" tomato and hot pepper plants that i'll be growing this year! Yeah! Oh, and back to the ice cream store; one of my duties is making the ice cream fresh every day (insert big smile here)...i have come up with a 'signature flavor', very special: Jalapeno Cheesecake! Oh, baby...

Chanson du Jour.....

I literally woke up with Pat Benatar's song "Hell is for Children" playing in my head. It wasn't on the radio alarm, and i don't think it was in what i was dreaming...even though i'm not sure just what it was that i was dreaming at the time...and the song went on playing in my head until i got to work.

dream segment.....

I am driving up Route 15 through Leesburg. There is a dark color (black? navy blue?), newer model Cadillac in front of me. The person driving it isn't the best of drivers, i notice. He (in the dream i think of this person as male) is going slow up the hill in Old Town, then guns it and runs the red light. I'm doing that cussing at "the other driver" thing when i notice to my right that there is a "Whole Foods" grocery store! I see people on the sidewalk, going into the store. I'm so thrilled! I'm thinking when did this get built? I file the information away for future reference in my memory as i drive on through town. I will be back!.....

Piscean Moon.....

I had the small, but intense feeling today during the afternoon that everybody was feeling very alive...it was a good thought, and a great vibe.....

Joonie & Rhiannon Reaching Out

"Pharmacists' Rights".....

On 3/28/05, the Washington Post ran an amazing above-the-fold article on the subject of pharmacist's right to refuse the filling of prescriptions that they might feel personally abhorrent. To me this just seems to go against the entire idea of entering the medical field. The article shows us that this idea is primarily focused on the (surprise!!!) reproductive meds. In other words, these pharmacists are refusing to fill a woman's birth control pill prescription. They are refusing to fill a woman's "morning-after" pill prescription. Some of the pharmacists refusing are ones who believe that ANY form of contraception is abortion.( One woman who was refused her prescription in Milwaukee for the morning-after pill had the nerve-wracking experience of a condom breaking during sex with her husband.) I personally feel that if a pharmacist thinks his/her religious and/or personal ideologies could interfere with his/her performance of medically sanctioned duties that he/she should resign and find another outlet.
UPDATE: on April 1st, Illinois governor Rod Blagojevich (D) issued an emergency rule which requires pharmacies to fill contraceptive 'scrips "without delay". The rule is in effect immediately, and will be up for review to make it permanent. This in contrast to the 11 other states which are considering laws to allow pharmacists to refuse. Blagojevich has also set up a toll-free number for residents to call and report any refusals. Imagine that! A politician who listened to his constituents, and responded! Great job...

Organic Farming Redux...

Last month 27 children died in Manila from eating one of their staple foods; cassava root. Why? The crop had been sprayed with a pesticide of the carbamate family. Talk about an outrage. I wonder which of our chemical manufacturing giants provided the poison this time?

Microbrew Meow

Buddy Has A Black & Tan
Note the foam on the whiskers...yes, my boy does enjoy a good beer...i've always had dogs that loved good beer, this is my first kitty who imbibes...i fondly recall the times that Rocky (huge German Shephard) would purposefully knock over the brewskis Mom & i would be having at the time...(i have many Polaroid photos of this particular act!) then he would gleefully slurp up the spoils...my doggie companion now, named Rhiannon, will ask for her beer in her special Beer Bark, so you know to pour a bowl for her pleasure...

In Memory of Betty...

Dill & Black Swallowtail caterpillar
i lived for two weeks on coffee
and Guinness
you couldn't eat, so i couldn't eat
i slept in 15 minute intervals, if at all
the tiniest sound, i was there
you didn't want the morphine
you didn't want the diaper
i held your hand, i told you it was o.k.
i hollered, i laughed, i hated those tumors
you shrunk, they grew
you wouldn't go until i was out of the room
you headstrong Aries Womon, i love you

4 Betty, 1976...

trailing-arbutus womon
has shown me mosses
daisies
crocus
carnations

aries womon
from whose womb i come
our sacred connection
cord through which we nourish each other
now not seen, but known
mother and daughter/magic blood
we know the secrets
our eyes speak

the love i have for you is
beyond words

dream segment...

i am at a large warehouse-type building with a companion, we are finding coins in this one filing cabinet-shaped structure...he/she goes into another room, i continue to find coins, they are now half-dollars in large quantities...i pick then all up and put them into the front pockets of the work apron i am wearing, they are quite hefty...when the deluge of coins stops, i look under the folders and find more little coins that had fallen earlier; thinking, "i might as well get them all"...and "now we'll split them all evenly, half & half!"...i go to find my companion...

dream segment...

i am hanging out with Gwynne, and we have come to the place where her cats are...there are boxes of chocolate...i am eating Reese cups as she checks on her cats...something bad has happened to one of her cats...she calls out from the other room for me to help her...i walk in munching on a mega-Reese's...she has her cat on an operating table-type set up, and is removing these huge metal staples from the kitty...she needs me to help by holding the cat's front paws, i set down the candy and reach out to help...it is quite intense as we work together to remove all of this metal from the cat...we have no anesthesia, we are very worried, we work as quickly as we can, wondering who has done this horrible thing?...

Joonie the last of the Old Dynasty, and Splash the progenitor of the new.....Edie (my O.C.; that stands for Original Cat) was Joonie's Mom, and Splash is the Mom of Panther, Buddy, Tyga and Dot.....

1992 Presidential Election.....

This was the bumpersticker i made up for that election:
"I'm not voting for George Bush, I'm not voting for Bill Clinton...
I'm voting for GEORGE CLINTON!!!
Let's put some FUNK in the White House!!!"

More MUST- reads.....

What's the Matter With Kansas? by Thomas Frank, and Thieves in High Places by Jim Hightower....

Hightower has been my hero since 1976 when i read his book Eat Your Heart Out...which of course is a "must-read" if you have not yet!

Dream Segment.....

I am at a party, and it's time to go...i round up my friend Maxie, who is going to get a ride home with me...i check to make sure i have my car keys, we go to the parking lot...(it's like an apartment complex parking lot, but with grass) I put the key to the door of a white VW Bug's driver side, and as i turn the key, the car collapses...i realize that this is my '72 that got totalled, i laugh tell Maxie...parked next to it is my '66, so we go and get into it, i start it up, and off we go...the driving is a little bit weird, but we go on...we stop somewhere and get out, Maxie & i are walking down an alley-sized walkway, he's a bit ahead of me...i am aware of large quantities of snakes on the walkway, some are writhing about...i become fearful, one; a cobra, bites me on my face...i am really scared and concerned, on the verge of freaking out about being bitten by a poisonous snake, i have it's head in my hand, and show it to someone, voicing my worry...they tell me not to worry as it hasn't bitten me in a fatal manner...i'm still upset, and trying to tell people...i finally find Maxie, and tell him, and we leave, walking back up the walkway past these snakes, but i notice that some of them are dead...