Thursday, October 30, 2014

dream...

i am in Mom's room with a friend, and notice that the ceiling is leaking, rainwater dripping into a small bucket that Mom has set there. i wonder why she did not tell me about this...i go to get another bucket, and as i open the utility room door, there is more water pouring out of a pipe in there...i tell my friend to come here and look at this! then i get a larger bucket to catch that water, and try to figure out what to do to fix the situation...

my friend & i are in Mom's room on the bed, talking and holding each other and i am wondering just how this is going to work out...it feels odd, but good to be close with him


Wednesday, October 29, 2014

the tiniest dream piece ever

i am comfortably reclined in a lawn chair talking with someone...as we talk, she looks at my out-stretched legs and i think that she is noticing that i do not shave 

Sunday, October 26, 2014

dream

i am at Steph's house/work, and she has had too much to drink and thrown up all over the place...chunky, with visible chickpeas and pasta, etc. 

i walk in the door of my house, and then into the bathroom. there is throw up all over the bathroom, sink, toilet, etc. and towels here and there. it is a total mess. i walk into the kitchen and say to the person there, "Steph must be here." and as i speak, i hear a laugh/giggle from the living room. there she is laid back on the sofa with her feet up. there is puke in the kitchen too. i am so angry, she has not made a move to clean any of this up. i think, she can just go back to her own house.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

dream segments


  • i am in a building, (maybe work?) and walking from one room to another when i hear the door open and Alex's (Uncle Kronos) voice behind me. i turn, hollering "Alex!!" and go hug & greet him. we enjoy talking...
  • i am at an event, walking over to put a large pan/bowl back at the stall...i have on no pants & am not concerned about this...i stumble as i walk and laugh at my clumsiness and leg fat wiggle...i put on a pair of board shorts and am made uncomfortable by the feel of the wet cloth on my skin so i decide to go to the pool and have a swim to feel better...
  • i am back working at Crown Books as the manager, i am walking around the store...in many areas there is art hanging, and informational posters instead of bookshelves...i am saddened and disturbed by this as i make my way around the store. i introduce myself to one of the employees, he seems genuinely happy to meet me. i go up front and get on register as a small line has formed. have a bit of trouble getting the register to work, but the family is pleasant about it, we share a laugh. they are exchanging one book which was defective, and buying one other picture book for their child.
  • i am at a hospital and go into the children's ward to relax. there was a lot of negative stuff happening elsewhere, and i needed to chill out. playing on a rolling chair...i help one of the nurses with a child named little georgie who did not want to come in to the ward. i hugged him and spoke with him, and it was all right...

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

the dreaming

D3rek texts me, saying that we should get a roll of paper and some pens and do a NaNoWriMo together. i whole-heartedly agree.

Monday, October 20, 2014

dream segments


  • broken fence section at gate...cohabitor says there have been three phone calls...Rhiannon is loose/out...look for leash clumsily (asleep??)...hear voices, go outside, here comes a woman and her son with Rhiannon...we are in the front yard, the mom talks about the moss on the stump of an oak tree
  • making friends with a woman and her three beautiful little girls, all with curly hair...store parking lot, working on/fixing something on my car...end up holding the woman so very close as we part/say goodbye --- later, walking through urban neighborhood, see her and the girls and lots of other people ---then, we move into a townhouse together, just as quickly, she is Chuck, but a tall older female version, and says something abusive to me, so i break up with her immediately. she moves out, back to her house, we do part nicely, i tell her i love her three girls
  • driving on Rt. 15 at the Rt. 55 intersection i see Rhiannon walking on the side of the road, i open the car door and call her, she has recognized my car and jumps in. she is wet, and has some cuts on her side, but is happy to see me...i go visit Maxie and tell him about all of this, we go get some beer and party --- trying to collect all the empty beer bottles from the party to recycle, the setting is a store right by the side of the road
  • go in a country store, patois spoken by the patrons there...i need to pee, the restroom is public, little more than a screened off bucket, really...a man watches and comments about me the entire time i urinate. i have a lot of urine and it feels very good when i am done
  • make friends with a woman, we have a very stimulating discussion about adventure --- later, at the side of the road with another friend, this woman pulls up in her vehicle and shows me/us a pamphlet about some very interesting land for sale in the south of Florida, at the very end of the state...watching out for traffic so she doesn't get hit by other cars, as she has not pull off the road
  • there is an event at the pool/clubhouse area that i am attending...as it is about to begin, i run back to the house to get something out of my car which i had forgotten...i cue some music, and see Cindi K. through the kitchen window, singing along to the T Rex song playing...we kind of wink at each other as i run back to the event...another song then plays 

Sunday, October 19, 2014

poem

swimming through deep
                water
with many draglines
attached
(kicking through turbulence)
floating through/and floating over
bold arm strokes/i am
surging ahead
hoping none of these
things
pull me under
pull me
 to the bottom

small pieces of dreaming


  • 3 or 4 women playing guitar, singing, from different bands/musical collectives...showing each other technique and songs and playing styles...i am close, listening/observing/longing...i wish to be a part of this joyfulness
  • a large cat, with a leash around its middle, is playing with me...we are leaping and chasing and then lying in the grass next to a building which is either demolished or new construction
  • Harry S. wins $40 million on a lottery type mechanized game
  • also trying out strategies for lottery winning are a newly made friend and i...she is lovely and has been part of two other dreaming sequences: in one she is singing with a beautiful voice, soprano/alto register, in another she is at the grocery store in my line as i ring up her groceries we are joking and becoming closer, becoming friends