a rough day

 woke just before 3:00 a.m. to pee, and after getting back into bed felt profound fear pertaining to what is happening in this country. finally got back to sleep, but since i woke up i have been dealing with persistent self-loathing.

 see Altair, Deneb, Lyra & Vega. the Moon!! all in the early a.m. before leaving for work. when off i drive towards Warrenton to visit the bookstore, but traffic is heavy and it really ruins the mood, so i bail off onto Beverlys Mill road and smile. much better! just a gorgeous day! home to cats and being outside just enjoying the breeze and sunshine.

vacation day #6

chilly and overcast. went to Ocelot for their anniversary party, but there were so many people packed in there, i did not stay. very glad the event looks like a successful one!!

vacation day #5

 cold and rainy. i have no focus today. decided to watch season 5 of Handmaid's Tale, to catch up.

vacation day #4

 overcast and chilly, do some reading then head to Ocelot for a couple of pints. home to soup and more reading. lazy day.

vacation day #3

 awaken, and step outside to greet the day. sunshine! and a bluebird!

vacation day #2

 sunshine, and so much wind, so very windy! get laundry done, then off to Ocelot, it's their 10 year anniversary week, and they are doing daily beer releases, so exciting.

vacation day #1

 rain, heavy rain and colder temperatures. a perfect day for reading. fire in the woodstove, and a pot of soup on the stove. Panther yelling for treats and Tyga trying to steal my sandwich. 

discord and unity

 emotional work day of butting heads with customers and co-workers. some tears and some laughter. a couple of good connections with "regulars", much appreciated. ended well. some Peepers on the drive home even with the falling temperature.

held it together fairly well today

 bald eagle and a kestral on the drive to work, Peepers and a rabbit on the drive home

wildflower walk in spring

Bluebells, Dutchman's Breeches and Trout Lilies all along the Bull Run

 i long for a morning where i can awaken and not immediately hear construction, power tools, leaf-blowers, lawnmowers, and simply hear the birds greeting Sunrise.

mom's 98th birthday

 if only.

 one hawk plus many tears drive to work. emotional day. a few Peepers on the drive home.

 two kestral drive to work. Spring peepers and a rabbit drive home.

 saw the blue heron at the pond again, plus one kestral, on the drive to work.

 in the front yard with Panther & Tyga, enjoying the daffodils

ups & downs

 blue heron and two kestral drive to work. walked in determined to have a good shift, mostly successful.

impromptu road trip on the vernal equinox

 went to Haymarket Museum to see the Thoroughfare Exhibit, but found the museum closed! the brewery i had planned to visit after would not yet be open, and i did not want to go back home so...ROAD TRIP! very randomly drove until i headed for Marshall to visit Red Truck Bakery. got a Guinness cake & focaccia. then, headed to Berryville to visit new brewery Chilly Hollow. enjoyed that very much, especially the part where i drove along side the Shenandoah. on the drive home, stopped by Quattro Goombas and had another good time. beautiful. fun day. 2 kestral, 1 hawk, 2 Merganser ducks.

 omg my shoulders are so tight, no matter how many heavy sighs i heave it is still there this awful tension this fear this anger this hope

remembering why i try to do this

 two ring-neck pheasants, two robins, a vulture and many crows. warm but windy, quintessential pre-Spring. visit to Ocelot, delightful. home, trying to woo Greylin-cat into letting me pet him, so close. remember the beauty even while experiencing the horror.