moving through financial crisis

Here i am, trying to remember just how it is to feel, to feel alive, and creative and aware. In my fullest capacity. Now that i no longer, on a daily basis, awaken to instant despair. The emotional easing of this! The relaxation possible, as i am able to expand my [...] horizons, reaching/re-attaining the fuller expression of who i am. The complexity of my being. My long-dampened innate artistic flow, freed from anguish and able to re-flower. The joy of this, the possibility!